~ "Lux" Lyrics ~
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Roses
I'll bring the highs, fight the lows
Put on shoes, change my clothes
All to feel, my heart swell
Look up at you, under your spell
You turned my lonely nights into
A fire burning the color blue
You're there for me and I'm there for you
What more could I want to pursue?
The rose bushes you planted
Turned this desolate planet
Into a garden of dreams
Now I'm not bursting at the seams
Anywhere I go now
Where everyone is sitting down
Gravity pulls me straight to you
To stay here forever there's nothing I wouldn't do
End of The World
Meet me at the diner
At the heart of the borough
We will dine in
Study the menu thoroughly
We'll have our last meal
Savor it while you can
I know we won't win
So please just take my hand
Because I don't want to
Run run run
Out of my house to my car
Trying to get away as far
As I can go
Run run run
I'm tired of running
I'm tired of suffering
And nobody knows
So now that there's nothing to do
I just want to sit there with you
And ponder the things we could've done
But remember all of the wars we won
But I don't want to
Run run run
Out of my house to my car
Trying to get away as far
As I can go
Run run run
I'm tired of running
I'm tired of suffering
And nobody knows
It's the end of the world
And nobody knows
Nobody knows
Nobody knows
Nobody knows
Nobody knows
Nobody knows
Nobody knows
Nobody knows
Meet me at the diner
At the heart of the borough
We will dine in
Study the menu thoroughly
We'll have our last meal
Savor it while you can
I know we won't live
So please just take my hand
Smile
I won't forget the good times we've had
The only thing sad's when they'll split us like that
Say you'll come back for me don't leave me blue
I'll bury my heart in the sand just for you
You can dig it up if I see you again
It's 6 feet below the spot we sat when
We watched the sunset, I cried a ton
You said "I hope you smile when this is all done"
Cheeks wet with a gallon of tears
I sat in your arms
You said "don't dwell on the fear
I'm sorry for the scars"
I can just see it
You leaving so slowly
I can just feel it
The lack of you around me
You told me to not write this song
You told me to smile when you are gone
How do you expect me to live
And not wait around for your return
I think we could figure out a plan so thin
You write my phone number and don't let it burn
I can't stop dreading the last day for us
I can't stop sweating how could someone gain my trust
The nights that we spent in each others arms
They tell me the end is not far
Cheeks wet with a gallon of tears
I sat in your arms
You said "don't dwell on the fear
I'm sorry for the scars"
I can just see it
You leaving so slowly
I can just feel it
The lack of you around me
You told me to not write this song
You told me to smile when you are gone
I promise
I promise that I will
Hang up the pictures of you and me
I'll smile with some tears whenever I see
I'll hope you end up with a better life
Somewhere out there with beauty and light
I'll never forget you if this is goodbye
I promise I'll smile but I cant say I won't cry
Cheeks wet with a gallon of tears
I sat in your arms
You said "don't dwell on the fear
I'm sorry for the scars"
I forgive you
It's not your fault
I love you
For my wound you didn't add salt
You told me to not write this song
You told me to smile when you are gone
Photo ID
Please don't become a memory
I don't think I can bear it
But I guess I'll have to
Will you still remember me
After years I can't shake it
My feelings about you
Will you please just keep a card for me
With my number, next to your photo I.D.
I know you'll haunt me in my dreams
In the photos taken of you and me
I don't think you love me
As much as I love you
Maybe that's a good thing
We were made to break slowly
To the ruins of something true
I can't speak so I'll sing
Will you please just keep a card for me
With my number, next to your photo I.D.
I know you'll haunt me in my dreams
In the photos taken of you and me
Your voice telling me "please don't cry"
But I can't help it when I say goodbye
I can't help but love the way you lie
To protect my feelings, to not make me cry
Please just keep a card for me
With my number, next to your photo I.D.
I know you'll haunt me in my dreams
In the photos taken of you and me
Goodbye
Soil
There's something so comforting
About waiting around to die
No thoughts in my mind
Or time to question why
Maybe I want to be this way
Finding comfort in all the grey
The dark clouds never clear
I wish that I could disappear
Under the ground
Never to be found
Walk right by me
I don't care anymore
I'll think of the sea
As I walk out the door
I'll just watch life as it shatters
Cause nothing ever really matters
I am gonna die anyway
I'll sink in the soil at the end of the day
I think when I sit in the yard
This peace never lasts cause life deals its cards
Time is numbered and I am too
No time to think, ten assignments are due
But I don't have anger
I don't have regret
I don't care at all
Now I have no sweat
Walk right by me
I don't care anymore
I'll think of the sea
As I walk out the door
I'll just watch life as it shatters
Cause nothing ever really matters
I am gonna die anyway
I'll sink in the soil at the end of the day
Walk right by me
I don't care anymore
I'll think of the sea
As I walk out the door
I'll just watch life as it shatters
Cause nothing ever really matters
I am gonna die anyway
I'll sink in the soil at the end of the day
Good things
I stand watching the sun setting over the ocean
And the waves tell my heart to open
But I'm afraid the sun will leave me forever
And it leaves just as I thought I was clever
Oh it can't see this light
I bring to the morning
I bring in these tides
When it's sunny or storming
Oh the moon must rise
And hold me closely
Oh I wish that
Good things would last
You know I can't hold on forever
For things that always stay never
The moon told me
It'd be back but just differently
Oh it can't see this light
I bring to the darkness
I bring in these tides
With their carefree and sharpness
Oh the sun must rise
And hold me closely
Oh I wish that
Good things would last
I know they'll back
They just won't remember me
I'll feel the lack
Cause I'll never be free
I Still Love You
Is it obvious
That I still love you?
That I savor us?
That I want to?
We are still friends
But I still want more
To not let this end
To reopen that door
When you're near I'm fine
But I miss you all the time
And when I'm in your arms
I still feel all your charms
When I look up at you
And think, I still feel blue
There's nothing I can do
But I still love you
I remember that night on the beach
When I restated my feelings through
That though what your parents preach
I still want you
Our sparks still seem to cut through
I sit in front of that door
It's open a crack I see you
I peek but still I want more
When you're near I'm fine
But I miss you all the time
And when I'm in your arms
I still feel all your charms
When I look up at you
And think, I still feel blue
There's nothing I can do
But I still love you
When you're gone I feel alone
I'll miss you till the end of time
And until then when we are grown
I'll say I'm fine and start to cry
When I look up at you
And think, I still feel blue
There's nothing I can do
But I still love you
When you're near I'm fine
But I miss you all the time
And when I'm in your arms
I still feel all your charms
When I look up at you
And think, I still feel blue
There's nothing I can do
But I still love you
Get a Clue
Why does nobody know things that are obvious?
It's like they're blind
To this phenomenon so sad and ravenous
I'd like this to unwind
There's a cracked-up creature
That sleeps under my bed
It waits for me to let down my guard
So that I could end up dead
Or maybe snatch an arm or two
He could do it if he wanted to
He could cook my head in a stew
Nobody knows so please get a clue
Everybody vomits words that coax the creature out
But they're clueless
Self righteous indignation when I cover up the spout
So relentless
There's a cracked-up creature
That sleeps under my bed
It waits for me to let down my guard
So that I could end up dead
Or maybe snatch an arm or two
He could do it if he wanted to
He could cook my head in a stew
Nobody knows so please get a clue
Eclipse
It's not funny
Other people's trauma
You never stop talking
Let me add a comma
There's no god damn compromise
Cause nobody opens their eyes
Empty promises don't even bother
As reliable as a deadbeat father
Hiding your insults behind jokes
I see through your pretty hoax
Is this rude? I don't give a fuck
I hope this hits like a semi truck
Insult humor
Ruins friendships
Venom in veins
Causing an eclipse
It's not ever funny
Making my skin itch
Get offended when I fight back
You're a hypocrite bitch
There's no god damn compromise
Cause nobody opens their eyes
Empty promises don't even bother
Toxic shits get along with one another
Hiding your insults behind jokes
I see through your pretty hoax
Is this rude? I don't give a fuck
I hope this hits like a semi truck
Insult humor
Ruins friendships
Venom in veins
Causing an eclipse
If you never respect me
I will never respect you
If you don't change eventually
For you there will be no room
I'm tired of being walked all over
I'm tired of condescending people
Invalidate me, ruin my mood
You give me such attitude
I have worked on self esteem
Confidence I want to see
Not to live here just to please
In my life you're a bad disease
I have tried my whole damn life
To get along with everyone and just be nice
But I don't let myself be a doormat
I don't let myself tolerate that
Once I got a good self esteem
All the motherfuckers say I'm so mean
While I've been trying to get clean
You act ten when you're actually a teen
The ones who stick around you
Are just like you or they're doormats too
There's the difference between them and I
They get used until they die
Hiding your insults behind jokes
I see through your pretty hoax
Is this rude? I don't give a fuck
I hope this hits like a semi truck
Insult humor
Ruins friendships
Venom in veins
Causing an eclipse
Venom in veins
Causing an eclipse
Venom in veins
Causing an eclipse
Venom in veins
Causing an eclipse
Rest Room
Tile floor
White door
To my core
I want more of it
I could live here
Sleep in the bathtub
The water hides my tears
Welcome to the club
If I could have some more time
A place to go where I can hide
When things just won't get better
I'm underneath the weather
But I know I can't stay here forever
So I drown my feelings, walk out looking better
I drown my feelings, walk out looking better
If only there were more time in life
Cause I just need a break tonight
Alone in my room
But this will have to do
Souvenir
You know that it's true
Things won't work between me and you
Oh it's what they say, "right person wrong time"
If we stayed friends would it be a crime?
I can't help but imagine
What could've been
In another life
I could be your lover
In another life
There would be no other but
Here I'll take you as a souvenir
The memory of you will treat me well
As soon as I fall under a different spell
But right now it's so hard to bear
Things will get better I'm well aware
But I can't help but imagine
What could've been
In another life
I could be your lover
In another life
There would be no other but
Here I'll take you as a souvenir
Thank you for the memories
Won't you just stay with me please?
Even if life takes you away from me
I think these things before I sleep
I know we're not together
I wish I could stay forever
I don't want it to be true
But I still fucking love you
I've never met no one like you
And without you I will be blue
Nobody else interests me
I won't get over you easily
In another life
I could be your lover
In another life
There would be no other but
Here I'll take you as a souvenir
Inn
Hey, we meet once again
Tonight in this room
We do the usual
Talk and stare at the moon
Out of the window
The view is so nice
Won't last forever
But this will suffice
If things were different
I'd go for broke
Go for broke
Go for broke
But since they aren't I left
Before you woke
Before you woke
Before you woke
If I could I'd marry this comfort
And it would be alright
We'd sleep in the same bed
Every single night
Here's the only place
We can see each other
Tomorrow I leave but
For now I pull the covers
If things were different
I'd go for broke
Go for broke
Go for broke
But since they aren't I left
Before you woke
Before you woke
Before you woke
And you know the puzzle pieces
Of our lives don't fit
But even that doesn't
Make me wanna quit
So we'll make the most of what we have
And keep the memories of what we had
Shut off the days that make us sad
We'll fantasize and just be glad that
If things were different
We'd go for broke
Go for broke
Go for broke
But since they aren't I left
Before you woke
Before you woke
Before you woke
If things were different
We'd go for broke
Go for broke
Go for broke
But since they aren't I left
Before you woke
Before you woke
Before you woke
Sleepless
My body is burning
I can't fall asleep
My stomach is turning
I want to weep
I have to wake up in five hours
Already spent two in bed
The thoughts in my head are getting louder
I just wish I was dead
Checking my alarm clock
Over and over again
Fidgeting with my socks
I should've slept at ten
Hung up on life
And things I have to do
But I never have time
Cause now it's almost two
It's like sleep is a program
In the computer of my mind
That no matter how many times I ran
It hasn't responded all night
Close the software
Reboot it all
Just cause I care
I'm not trying to stall
Checking my alarm clock
Over and over again
Fidgeting with my socks
I should've slept at ten
Hung up on life
And things I have to do
But I never have time
Cause now it's almost two
I guess I'll down some melatonin
Before twelve so I can sleep
And hope that it will sink in
For at least six hours deep
The Last Garden
I'll drive alone through the streets of this town
Looking out at the people around
I will admire them before we fall away
Cause the world ends today
There's one garden left in the world now
For things to end up like this I don't know how
So when my mother tells me to exercise
I'll light the house on fire with these eyes
I'll drive to work every day
Hoping my fear will go away
Even though I know it won't
I think about it they tell me don't
And maybe if I go to the park
Daily I won't be a shark
In a pool full of my own blood
Or in the dark on my knees in the mud
There's one garden left in the world now
For things to end up like this I don't know how
So when my mother starts to magnify
I'll say I'm done with trying to satisfy
There's one garden left in the world now
For things to end up like this I don't know how
So when my father tells me to dry my eyes
I'll say that's the kind of shit that makes me despise
You all just don't understand
I don't need you to hold my hand
None of this shit has been planned
No more gardens, no more land
When I drive at night
I'll wish the world was a wasteland
And that a ditch could hold me tight
Keep me safe from a life so bland
Surely the dark will let me in
Cause nobody else ever did
This way maybe I will win
At life leaving my kin
I'll lie to every therapist, psychiatrist
And adult in my life
Think about it every day, all the time
Where's my knife?
There's one garden left in the world now
For things to end up like this I dont know how
So when my parents ask me why
Instead of answering I'll just fucking sigh
For shit to end up like this I dont know how
For things to fuck up like this I dont know how
For shit to end up like this I dont know how
For things to fuck up like this I don't know how
