~ "MARS" Lyrics ~
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this life
Trapped in a space that isn't mine
Looking out to see the stars align
I thought it was a good sign
I was wrong
Stuck in a pace that slows no time
Winter to summer, fruit of the vine
I thought I was out of line
I was wrong
I know I know
I know it all now
Don't show don't show
Don't show me how
This life (this life)
This love (This love)
This game (this game)
This knife (this knife)
This shove (this shove)
This flame (this flame)
I see it all and it's the same
(Oh, oh oh, oh oh)
I see it all and it's the same
Walking the streets no longer mine
Looking up to see the bright moon shine
No longer any time
I was wrong
I know I know
I know it all now
Don't show don't show
Don't show me how
This life (this life)
This love (this love)
This game (this game)
This knife (this knife)
This shove (this shove)
This flame (this flame)
I see it all and it's the same
(Oh, oh oh, oh oh)
I see it all and yet my
My flames are blue
My palms are red
Nothing I can do
My garden's dead
My story's true
My lonely bed
Can't break this glue
Stuck in my head
This life
It's a fight
And a game
This life (this life)
This love (this love)
This game (this game)
This knife (this knife)
This shove (this shove)
This flame (this flame)
I see it all and it's the same
(Oh, oh oh, oh oh)
I see it all and it's the same
tell me
A hundred signs
Never knowing what they'll mean
In the end
Reputations never clean
Hypocrisy
The ones who claim anyone's wrong
But I can see
The ones who hide are not that strong
Say "Why do you stress and strain
When you can just say my name?
I promise it won't be in vain"
"Okay"
They cancel quick
They post idiosyncrasies
It makes me sick
But society hasn't got to me
Say "Why do you stress and strain
When you can just say my name?
I promise it won't be in vain"
"Okay"
So tell me I'll be okay
That I'll see another day
Just tell me the world is sweet
I don't care, just lie to me
Say "Why do you stress and strain
When you can just say my name?
And it'll all be okay"
Okay?"
Say "Why do you stress and strain
When you can just say my name?
I promise it won't be in vain"
"Okay"
see you tomorrow
I leave before the party ends
I say "I'll see you tomorrow
After my torn heart mends
And I'm not filled with sorrow"
I try and fail to evade you
When I walk down my hometown street
You say "I'll try to persuade you"
As you comedically glance at me
(Ooh)
You say "What do you need?"
(Ooh)
I say I'm filled with sorrow
(Ooh)
You say "What does that mean?"
(Ooh)
I say "I'll see you tomorrow"
You say "The party's tonight
Will I see you then?"
I say "Will it be alright?"
You say "I'll be there till it ends"
(Ooh)
You say "What do you need?"
(Ooh)
I say I'm filled with sorrow
(Ooh)
You say "What does that mean?"
(Ooh)
I say "I'll see you tomorrow"
(Ooh)
I run down the stairs crying
(Ooh)
You follow me down
(Ooh)
Then right then I start dying
(Ooh)
Happens when you're around
(Ooh)
You say "What do you need?"
(Ooh)
I say I'm filled with sorrow
(Ooh)
You say "What does that mean?"
(Ooh)
I say "I'll see you tomorrow"
I leave before the party ends
I say "I'll see you tomorrow
After my torn heart mends
And I'm not filled with sorrow"
I leave before the party ends
I say "I'll see you tomorrow"
blind
I thought that one day
would be nice
But I was late,
now I'm paying the price
I can't see
You with me
Anymore
And I
Couldn't find a way
To go say "hey"
Now it's too late
And I'll be okay
The second I saw
My stone heart just sank
And you don't know
It's you I can thank
I can't see
You with me
Anymore
And I
Couldn't find a way
To go say "hey"
Now it's too late
And I'll be okay
You were always there
To make me feel sparks or make me feel somewhat scared
But there's no fireworks anymore
Now it feels like you just closed the door
Yeah you can't pass me by without
Making me sad or making me want to cry
I know it won't be the same
Your life flying by, you won't even know my name
I can't see you with me
It's really hard to know who you wanna be
When I saw him with you
The light of my phone screen all I saw was blue
Now I paint the picture
Of you in my mind
So I'll remember
Had to leave you behind
I can't see
You with me
Anymore
And I
Couldn't find a way
To go say "hey"
Now it's too late...
breakable
I got attached to a friend group
They made me happy for a while
Lack of attention threw me for a loop
And with them they took my smile
I got attached to soon-to-be boyfriend
He makes me laugh with a flirty smile
I am terrified it'll end
We've been in purgatory for a while
I feel like I'm going crazy
Yea people leave me daily
My mind affects my body
Every night leaves me foggy
I'm breakable but I'm also not
I'm breakable I can't fucking stop
I got attached to my damn best friend
They brightened up my darkest days
They just fucking let it bend
We're still friends but it ain't the same
I got attached to a new friend right
After Christmas singing Adam's song
Now they're off the grid and I'm alone at night
I guess that shit didn't last long
Yeah I feel like I'm going crazy
Yeah people leave me daily
My mind affects my body
Every night leaves me foggy
I'm breakable but I'm also not
I'm breakable I can't fucking stop
I got attached to another friend
They like the way I fucking sing
If I picked up a knife in front of them
They wouldn't notice a thing
And I know it's stupid how I let
Everyone run my life
But I can't fucking stop it's just
How I pass the time
Cause nothing fucking stays the same even
After just two weeks
In a month they're gone and here I am and
My life stinks
Yeah I feel like I'm going crazy
Yeah people leave me daily
My mind affects my body
Every night leaves me foggy
I'm breakable but I'm also not
I'm breakable I can't fucking stop
I feel like I'm getting stupid
Yeah people don't care when I'm muted
My mind affects my mood
Jesus Christ my life is screwed
I'm breakable but I'm also not
I'm breakable I can't fucking stop
not us/not you
I'm not invited to your parties
I guess you never cared to ask
Maybe you just wanted me to
But that's a childish task
You're not allowed to make me like you
Then stay long enough to hurt me
I wont let you paint me dark blue
Just leave now better hurry
I guess I've really gotta end it
It seems like such a shame
I know your love is a knife
But your poison spread like a flame
You're not allowed to make me like you
Then stay long enough to hurt me
I wont let you paint me dark blue
Just leave now better hurry
I don't care if you view me negatively
Tell all your friends say that "He ghosted me"
But I did it all to protect myself
From a boy I know would put me on a shelf
Oh oh
Not us
Oh oh
Not you
You can't play with my emotions then
Have zero consequences
It's too unfair
You can't have my attention then
Leave us unmentioned
Without a care
You're not allowed to make me like you
Then stay long enough to hurt me
I wont let you paint me dark blue
Just leave now better hurry
I don't care if you view me negatively
Tell all your friends say that "He ghosted me"
But I did it all to protect myself
From a boy I know would put me on a shelf
Oh oh
Not us
Oh oh
Not you
angel
Fuck it I guess I'm lonely
But I don't wanna be this way anymore
I want somebody to hold me
But I don't wanna see them Walking out the door
Give me butterflies
And a beautiful smile
Don't you say goodbye
I don't wanna be this way tonight
I could be the boy you talk to
I could be the one who loves you
Promise that you'll keep me safe
We'll be each other's great escape
Just don't break my fragile heart
Like the others don't make me start
Dull the blade of that wretched knife
And maybe start a brand new life
Well fuck, now no one knows me
I've been so closed off for so long
I know love isn't free
But I still stay hopeful with this song
Give me butterflies
And a beautiful smile
Don't you say goodbye
I don't wanna be this way tonight
I could be the boy you talk to
I could be the one who loves you
Promise that you'll keep me safe
We'll be each other's great escape
Just don't break my fragile heart
Like the others don't make me start
Dull the blade of that wretched knife
And maybe start a brand new life
I can be your angel
Not sad and lonely
If I make your heart melt
Please just tell me
I wanna get to know you
Through the depths of your soul
And if you treat me right
To show you mine's the goal
I could be the boy you talk to
I could be the one who loves you
Promise that you'll keep me safe
We'll be each other's great escape
Just don't break my fragile heart
Like the others don't make me start
Dull the blade of that wretched knife
And maybe start a brand new life
Oh oh oh oh oh
Oh whoa oh
Or not
MARS
Back in august, I moved to mars
Wasteland planet beneath the stars
Sometimes peaceful, sometimes hell
Honey I'm not doing so well
I'm sometimes red, sometimes blue
Always purple, bruises bloom
I'm sometimes high, I'm always low
I'll just go watch a TV show
I'm looking for an answer
Out among the stars
The dead and barren streets
Wondering how far
"Nothing's enough anymore"
I will always miss the past
Till the devil knocks on my door
Nothing seems to last
On this planet I don't wanna see
The ghosts of friends looking back at me
They're barely there, it hurts to breathe
Dust on the floor's what I wanna be
I'm looking for an answer
Out among the stars
The dead and barren streets
Wondering how far
"Nothing's enough anymore"
I will always miss the past
Till the devil knocks on my door
Nothing seems to last
And when my demons come to crawl
To make me numb or make me bawl
There's a question that I scream
When I'm bursting at the seams
Now I'm lying on the floor yelling
"How do I do this?
How do I do this?
How do I do this anymore?
How do I do this?
How do I do this?
How do I fucking get through the week?
Just a week of my life?
I don't wanna do this anymore"
stomachaches
Pink salmon orange sunset
My blood getting tired of flowing
Tired of always getting upset
My movements begin slowing
Escitalopram stomachaches
It'll be worth it when the fever breaks
Clandestine cave with vines
Singing with some real friends
I wish I'd be there all the time
Not wishing my life would end
Escitalopram stomachaches
It'll be worth it when the fever breaks
Happy's something I can't find
These pills make me wanna die
I had to leave it all behind
Onto bupropion, why?
Bupropion stomachaches
It'll be worth it when the fever
letter from a ghost
What is it like?
A world without me
I bet it still turns
I bet it still burns
What is it like?
Do you remember?
I bet that most don't
You already don't
The hypocrites miss me
But if they knew only
What they had to do
To make me feel less blue
Be fucking mad at me
I don't care
I swear you better be
Saving the rare
What is it like?
Do you regret?
I bet my smile haunts you
If only you all knew
Why do they care
As soon as I'm gone?
I bet that shit hurts
Did you keep my shirts?
The hypocrites miss me
But if they knew only
What they had to do
To make me feel less blue
Be fucking mad at me
I don't care
I swear you better be
Saving the rare
Does my face haunt you?
Hazel eyes near
Eyeliner smudged through
Crying and tears
How sweet was my smile?
Was it real enough?
It lasted a while
But then life grew tough
Hated reflections
Shattered mirrors
Tried many distractions
But nothing was clearer
So fucking tired
My whole world was ending
My whole world was ending
My whole world was ending
Does anyone miss me?
I hope that you miss me
I hope that you do
Does anyone miss me?
I hope that you miss me
I hope that you-
I bleed the color blue
Honestly, I
Really just wanna cry
Every night
Before bed
And I wish that I
Didn't really want to die
All the time
In my head
Whenever I smile, I hope it lasts a while to heal me
I hope that someone really just wants to feel me
At the end the day, what am I supposed to do?
I bleed the color blue
This life can be fun
But whenever it's done
No one's laughing
Only tears
Blue pen on my arm
Layered on me like scars
Cause I can't see
You and me
Whenever I smile, I hope it lasts a while to heal me
I hope that someone really just wants to feel me
At the end the day, what am I supposed to do?
I bleed the color blue
And I feel that you
All color me blue
But the world it seems is not for me
Yeah what should I do?
No option I could find
Would fix broken time
And let me down, I'll be around
Yeah I'll see you tomorrow
(Another day feeling breakable
An angel with constant stomachaches
left completely blind some days
Named Mars
Living in a mental wasteland
But It's all so real
Ghosting because I think it's not worth the pain
Not us, not you
But do we all live this way?
An angel left thinking
"Will I see you tomorrow?"
Tell me it'll be okay
That I'll see another day)
Whenever I smile, I hope it lasts a while to heal me
I hope that someone really just wants to feel me
At the end the day, what am I supposed to do?
I bleed the color blue
some days
Cleaning up confetti after the party
No time limit or any tardy
The fun is over
The gig is done
There's no "getting closure"
Just sit with me and watch the rising sun
My sweatshirt and a notepad
Summer in my dark room
I was too young to know that
How much I was in gloom
I didn't know what was to come
I was young and I was dumb
But am I still?
There we are
In the fields of grass
Watching the stars
My hand around a glass
Wishing for the younger days
When we didn't have to worry
About not being in a haze
It just gets blurry
Some days
It happened so quickly
Pictures passed
Now there's nobody with me
How long did it last?
Cause laying in bed
Doesn't get nobody far
Messing up my bedspread
Maybe one day I'll be a star
There we are
In the fields of grass
Watching the stars
My hand around a glass
Wishing for the younger days
When we didn't have to worry
About not being in a haze
It just gets blurry
Some days
My blue bed
With my blue desk
And my blue head
I put my head to rest
My blue brush
With my blue shirt
And my head rush
Broken and hurt
There we are
In the fields of grass
Watching the stars
My hand around a glass
Wishing for the younger days
When we didn't have to worry
About not being in a haze
It just gets blurry
Some days
Some days
Some days
Some days
Cleaning up confetti after the party
No time limit or any tardy
The fun is over
The gig is done
There's no "getting closure"
Just sit with me and watch the setting sun
