~ "SADDER DAY" Lyrics ~
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Courtesy Warning
So before we like, become friends I'd like to give you a warning
Know me
If you want to
Show me
That you'll stay
Dis-moi que je suis fol
I've heard it from them all
I'm too much for everyone
Don't say "It's fine" if you're gonna run
And leave me alone
Cause I'd rather be alone
Than be left by who I love
I hate that fatal shove
Know me
If you want to
Show me
That you'll stay
I've got a history
I'm a liability
True stories I'll tell you
Will seem like tragedies too
Loving me is hugging a dying cactus
I hurt but it hurts you too
Knowing me is just such a burden
I'm a problem, what can I do?
I don't wanna be an issue you feel you wanna fix
Cause there's no way to save someone halfway down the styx
I’m a house fire that can’t be put out
You can’t stop it by yourself now
I’m nice, I’m fun, I’m insecure
“Good advice” but are you sure?
I’m empathetic and pathetic
But at least not psychopathic
Know me
If you want to
Show me
That you'll stay
I've got a history
I'm a liability
True stories I'll tell you
Will seem like tragedies too
Loving me is hugging a dying cactus
I hurt but it hurts you too
Knowing me is just such a burden
I'm a problem, what can I do?
Do I mastermind this shit and trick everyone
Into being my friends and then start the fun
Or do I warn them not to get close to me
Because I don’t want them to ever leave
I should do the selfless thing and warn you
I’m a ticking time bomb about to go boom
You shouldn’t stick around to get burned
I will be the lesson that you have to learn
I've got a history
I'm a liability
True stories I'll tell you
Will seem like tragedies too
Loving me is hugging a dying cactus
I hurt but it hurts you too
Knowing me is just such a burden
I'm a problem, what can I do?
Know me
If you want to
Show me
That you'll sta-
blood moon
Every afternoon I have you on my mind
But I know that you're far away, across the line
I try to fill the void, but I can't find someone else
I'm drowning in the social sea, I need some help
I have a greenhouse of plenty for now
But need someone to help build the world somehow
Always absent, lacking goodbyes
I taste belief and then you leave my side

You only come around once every blood moon
Only to leave, and say that you'll see me soon
And I look up to see the night sky
And hope that by some chance I'll see red tonight
You only come around once every blood moon
To hang with me and dance to our favorite tune
And I'll look up to see the night sky
And hope that by some chance I'll see red tonight
So like a ghost you disappear once again
But I'm a kid on Christmas when you come back in
I know you're busy and have your own life
But I do too and you know I still try
With barely any friends I'm looked down upon
People just insult me and have their fun
But they're just the largest of parasites
Who see that I'm human when they look in my eyes
You only come around once every blood moon
Only to leave, and say that you'll see me soon
And I look up to see the night sky
And hope that by some chance I'll see red tonight
You only come around once every blood moon
To hang with me and dance to our favorite tune
And I'll look up to see the night sky
And hope that by some chance I'll see red tonight
The one I long to be closer with
Not have our talks be a total myth
I light a candle and hope that the small flame
Doesn't burn out and bring me so much pain
You only come around once every blood moon
Only to leave, and say that you'll see me soon
And I look up to see the night sky
And hope that by some chance I'll see red tonight
You only come around once every blood moon
To hang with me and dance to our favorite tune
And I'll look up to see the night sky
And hope that by some chance I'll see red tonight
promises you can't keep
A silhouette crossing the door frame
I wonder if I took it too far
Or if you did and you're giving me the blame
This is my least favorite part
Everyone eventually fucks up
And doesn't wanna admit they're wrong
You could've at least given a 'heads up'
Before you got my hopes up too long
I wish you handled me with delicacy
That one night so I wouldn't be lonely
You said you'd love me till the end of time
But I know now all of that was a lie
You said you couldn't hate me if you tried
But now I reminisce on back when you were mine
Don't make promises you can't keep
Don't pretend like our connection was deep
Cause clearly it wasn't for you to do that
To betray your own promises, that's too bad
[interlude]
I wish you handled me with delicacy
That one night so I wouldn't be this lonely
You said you'd love me till the end of time
But I know now all of that was a lie
You said you couldn't hate me if you tried
But now I reminisce on back when you were mine
Don't make promises you can't keep
Don't pretend like our connection was deep
Cause clearly it wasn't for you to do that
To betray your own promises, that's too bad
I never took you as a foolish liar
Or a brute lacking empathy, fuel to the fire
Why would you tell me you would never leave me?
Don't make promises that you can't keep
You said you'd love me till the end of time
But I know now all of that was a lie
You said you couldn't hate me if you tried
But now I reminisce on back when you were mine
Don't make promises you can't keep
Don't pretend like our connection was deep
Cause clearly it wasn't for you to do that
To betray your own promises, that's too bad
ghost town
I thought I did everything right
In the dark, for you I became a light
Picked flowers, I chose all the right words
So high, we said hello to the birds
I built you a city on a cloud
Then you left me with a ghost town
I gave you my keys and a kiss
You left me with red eyes in the mist
You came over to watch a movie
But I found out you just wanted my body
I said I wanted to take it slow
Then out the door I saw your body go
I built you a city on a cloud
Then you left me with a ghost town
I gave you my keys and a kiss
You left me with red eyes in the mist
Now the door is closed
You say I deserve better, I say I know
Now I sit in this abandoned town
Of what could've been before it drowned
I built you a city on a cloud
Then you left me with a ghost town
I gave you my keys and a kiss
You left me with red eyes in the mist
MONSOON
I can't deal with the small things
I can never find shelter from the storm
I can't stop rust from finding my rings
I can't get dark clouds to not form
when the room begins to fall
And I can’t see at all
my heart races, throbs and dies
Can’t stop tear drops clouding my eyes
Every time it rains it's a damn monsoon
Floods my head at dawn, dusk and noon
It's never ending anytime soon
Dark clouds cover up my moon
Every time it rains it's a damn monsoon
Floods my head at dawn, dusk and noon
It's never ending anytime soon
Dark clouds cover up my moon
I run in a field from the rainstorm
I can't find the trees or a shelter here
I think that life has lost form
I wish that this monsoon would disappear
when the room begins to fall
And I can’t see at all
my heart races, throbs and dies
Can’t stop tear drops clouding my eyes
Every time it rains it's a damn monsoon
Floods my head at dawn, dusk and noon
It's never ending anytime soon
Dark clouds cover up my moon
Every time it rains it's a damn monsoon
Floods my head at dawn, dusk and noon
It's never ending anytime soon
Dark clouds cover up my moon
All the places from my dreams
Are dry as a bone
All the places from my dreams
Are dry as a bone
Every time it rains it's a damn monsoon
Floods my head at dawn, dusk and noon
It's never ending anytime soon
Dark clouds cover up my moon
Every time it rains it's a damn monsoon
Floods my head at dawn, dusk and noon
It's never ending anytime soon
Dark clouds cover up my moon
class of 2023
I used to walk these streets at night
At sixteen years old
Now at eighteen I just drive
And fit the adult mold
The sky filled up with silence
with blue and grey as I roamed
The bold clouds split for cities
The rain held back till I got home
I work a job, I got a boss
I have a passion but I feel lost
Is the world ready for me?
Am I ready for it?
From toy stores to coffee shops
And high school to college
The ghosts guide us through the world
Until we fly above it
I don't feel human
Word knives cut too deep
I'm ready to go
Somewhere that's not asleep
I don't wanna be brainless
Who reap the shit they sow
But my life hasn't been painless
So that means I'll grow
Now the rain waits for no one
Cities don't make the clouds split
Now the pain makes it no fun
and that old coat you wore doesn't fit
I work a job, I got a boss
I have a passion but I feel lost
Is the world ready for me?
Cause I'm ready for it
From toy stores to coffee shops
And high school to college
The ghosts guide us through the world
Until we fly above it
I don't feel human
Word knives cut too deep
I'm ready to go
Somewhere that's not asleep
It's time, it's time
It's time to go
It's time, It's time
It's time to go
It's time, it's time
It's time to go
It's time, It's time
It's time to go
It's time, It's time
It's time to grow
It's time, it's time
It's time to grow
It's time, It's time
It's time to grow
It's time, it's time
It's time to grow
From toy stores to coffee shops
And high school to college
The ghosts guide us through the world
Until we fly above it
I don't feel human
Word knives cut too deep
I'm ready to go
Somewhere that's not asleep
It's time, it's time
It's time to go
It's time, It's time
It's time to go
It's time, it's time
It's time to go
It's time, It's time
It's time to go
It's time, It's time
It's time to grow
It's time, it's time
It's time to grow
It's time, It's time
It's time to grow
It's time, it's time
It's time to grow
Saint
Melting in front of the window
Showing our souls to each other
I haven't done it in a long time
But I'm seeing a brand new color
Stardust makes me wonder
If my dreams will come to fruition
We share a fear of that thunder
In my dreams are bad premonitions
You don't have to be strong
You don't have to hide
You don't have to stand tall
If you feel you're gonna cry
You don't have to be a saint
Don't let it fuel your apprehensions
I know you say you've made mistakes
But that doesn't change your intentions
There's been gaps in communication
I always wish that there weren't
I keep on building bridges
But they keep on getting burnt
Stardust makes me wonder
If all of our pain and our hurt
All of that rolling thunder
Will pass by or get worse
You don't have to be strong
You don't have to hide
You don't have to stand tall
If you feel you're gonna cry
You don't have to be a saint
Don't let it fuel your apprehensions
I know you say you've made mistakes
But that doesn't change your intentions
You don't have to be strong
You don't have to hide
You don't have to stand tall
If you feel you're gonna cry
You don't have to be a saint
Don't let it fuel your apprehensions
I know you say you've made mistakes
But that doesn't change your intentions
perfect, perfect
I’m not free
When the skeleton in my closet is me
Help me
When the mirror bursts in flames into debris
I’m at a loss for words
I’m staring at myself and I don’t like it
Nobody with me is that tight-knit
Oh what can I do then?
I’m staring at the clock tryn to be carefree
I just want the greatest for me
Call me selfish call me crazy
Perfect life and perfect body
One small thing
Makes me want to lose it
Makes me wanna puke and
Makes me wanna starve for a week
Not eat anything until I’m weak
Let me go
Don’t let me know
I know
cried myself to sleep again
[Instrumental]
james
Cavetown songs still remind me of you
Your peaceful life that you'll continue
We haven't talked since January first
The pain I feel is no longer the worst
Dreaming of finding someone like you
Wishing I had someone else to talk to
About the things that matter
The way that life's a ladder
I hate that I miss you to this day
Though I was the one who went away
You forced me to go
This I hope you know
Fuck you James, for all that you did
You destroyed me, I was just a kid
You're gonna wish you believed me then
Instead of your fake friends while I pleaded
Fuck you James, for all that time
You fit in my life like a lifeline
I thought you were here to stay
Now you've got me filled with hate
You told me that I had demons
You ghosted me for days on end
Until I gave up fighting for me
You got what you wanted, I wasn't free
Fuck you James, for all you knew
Every time I want to forgive you
The voice in my head says "don't"
"If you think he'll change, he won't"
Fuck you James, you're no saint
For everything that you taint
You're a wolf in sheep's clothing
But since then I've been growing
de e l e v a t o r
The light is out the window
I used to be chained in the basement
But after pill love, though
I'm not outside, just at the window casement
Bullet proof glass
Oh will this be the last?
If I stop my savior now,
Will I get through or go down?
Baby, you're keeping me out of the dark
But you also keep me away from the light
Baby, you know I can't stay forever
But I thank you for fighting a good fight
If I abandon what I know keeps the light nearby
Will the window lock disappear or will I simply die?
I can't decide I can't decide
I don't just want to run and hide
Baby, you're keeping me out of the dark
But you also keep me away from the light
Baby, you know I can't stay forever
But I thank you for fighting a good fight
If I take you down, will you drag me down too?
If you drag me down, will I never ever move
again?
Baby, you're keeping me out of the dark
But you also keep me away from the light
Baby, you know I can't stay forever
But I thank you for fighting a good fight
Baby, you're keeping me out of the dark
But you also keep me away from the light
Baby, you know I can't stay forever
But I thank you for fighting a good fight
Chess Master
You like to think you're in control
That the world revolves around you
You're just a piece in the game
And I just like to look like I’m tame
But you could never know
What I am made of
I could let blood rain
You could go insane
You like to think that you’re the queen
That you’re fighting formidably
But the truth is that is me
I’m controlling how I’m seen
If I want you to be scared of me
You will be, you will be
If I want you to be loving me
You will be, you will be
I’ve got more control than you think
I can disappear in a blink
All you are is a fucking disaster
You’re just a pawn, and I’m the chess master
You like to think you know it all
But you know nothing
You will not get your money
Isn’t it so funny
The world is my oyster
The oyster is your cage
A little bit of rain there
Is a flood for you, too much to bear
You like to think that you’re the queen
That you’re fighting formidably
But the truth is that is me
I’m controlling how I’m seen
If I want you to be scared of me
You will be, you will be
If I want you to be loving me
You will be, you will be
I’ve got more control than you think
I can disappear in a blink
All you are is a fucking disaster
You’re just a pawn, and I’m the chess master
I'm sorry to myself
My silhouette looks great
My hair is pretty
I think I have too much weight
And I just wanna be skinny
I wish I was simply smaller
But life said I should be taller
I know that I should be grateful
But looking down is painful
I want to be skinny
And not have to be so tall
I just want to be pretty
And just wake up more small
Mirrors are my friend
Until it's time to take off my shirt
I just try to pretend
That seeing my body doesn't hurt
Stressing about people seeing my skin
I order a size up in everything
Wishing people wouldn't comment on my body
Cause every time I hear it my mind just gets foggy
I try to get on the scale every morning
To check that my weight isn't soaring
I'll skip a meal, try to feel
Less hungry, what's the deal?
I want to be skinny
And not have to be so tall
I want to be pretty
And just wake up more small
Mirrors are my friend
Until it's time to take off my shirt
I just try to pretend
That seeing my body doesn't hurt
When I grab the silverware
It tells me no, tells me no
Angels and devils in me
I don't know, I don't know
I can't tell the difference between them
This light never seemed so grey then
I don't know right from wrong here
I can't ever seem to quell my fear
I want to be skinny
And not have to be so tall
I just want to be pretty
And just wake up more small
Mirrors are my friend
Until it's time to take off my shirt
I just try to pretend
That seeing my body doesn't hurt
