~ "the postscript" Lyrics ~
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nuclear winter
I'm cold
The land is barren like me
Not gold
A worn out torn up color to be
I don't want to leave
Cause you make me feel safe
You're not good for me
But I can't help imagining the fate
But hey, that's just what it allows
The ground is just white now
The floor will always give out
It's just what this nuclear winter's all about
Seeing the dust makes me sad
I know
It's just eighteen years that were bad
So it goes
Bright eyes I wonder about
What it would be like to love
I need some warmth in the drought
Seeing you gives my heart a shove
But hey, that's just what it allows
The ground is just white now
The floor will always give out
It's just what this nuclear winter's all about
Apocalypse apologists
Stay away
I know and don’t care about what
You have to say
I have a thirst
Unable to be quenched
It’s just the worst
Too dry to be drenched
It’s been the end
For way too long
So I won’t stand
When I sing this song
But hey, that's just what it allows
The ground is just white now
The floor will always give out
It's just what this nuclear winter's all about
It's just what this nuclear winter's all about
angel p2
After you kiss me my mind gets foggy
When you hold me my body feels lovely
And you make me feel small
After you leave I smell you on my bed
After you leave I see you in my head
And I don't mind at all
I wanna see all of you right now
I wanna see all of you endowed
Your lips feel like your tongue
They chose me I'm the one
Tonight you can make me swoon
Don't wait till the moon's maroon
You make me your angel every day
Just don't lead this angel astray
When you touch my face I feel so dizzy
And my touch makes you wanna get busy
You kiss me so hard
When you set off my fireworks and I set off yours
It makes my head spin and my angel wings soar
You're playing your card
I wanna see all of you right now
I wanna see all of you endowed
Your lips feel like your tongue
They chose me I'm the one
Tonight you can make me swoon
Don't wait till the moon's maroon
You make me your angel every day
Just don't lead this angel astray
Don't keep this angel away
Don't lead this angel astray
Don't let this angel fade away
Please just let this angel stay
Don't lead this angel far away
Don't hurt this angel that way
Let me be your angel every day
Please just let this angel stay
I wanna see all of you right now
I wanna see all of you endowed
Your lips feel like your tongue
They chose me I'm the one
Tonight you can make me swoon
Don't wait till the moon's maroon
You make me your angel every day
Just don't lead this angel astray
focus on
Got nothing to do
Got nothing to prove
Got no life to live
Got no gift to give
Don't wanna get out of bed
I can't get out of my head
Cause there's nowhere to go
I'll reap the shit I sow
And when the semester starts
The void in me will be gone
It'll give me comfortability
Give me some shit to focus on
Give me something to focus on
Give me something to focus on
Give me something to focus on
Give me something to focus on
Give me something to focus on
Give me something to focus on
Give me something to focus on
Give me something to focus on
I'll be away from my boyfriend but
At least I'll have something to do
I'll try to listen to my gut
Because I've got too much to lose
And when the semester starts
The void in me will be gone
It'll give me comfortability
Give me some shit to focus on
Give me something to focus on
Give me something to focus on
Give me something to focus on
Give me something to focus on
Give me something to focus on
Give me something to focus on
Give me something to focus on
Give me something to focus on
Give me something to focus on
Give me something to focus on
Give me something to focus on
Give me something to focus on
Give me something to focus on
Give me something to focus on
Give me something to focus on
Give me something to focus on
dreamlike
My skin like butter
In the hot hot sun
When you're around
I come undone
You kinda make me ache
The icing on the cake
Feels like a simulation
Afraid of confrontation
When you said that I'm a god
Did you really mean it?
And when you said that I'm hot
Did you really see it?
You don't mind when I cry
You're such a nice guy
You're quite a lightning strike
Loving you is dreamlike
Now I let you in the back door
Stay a while, come around more
Put me under you, put me under you
Until when you say my name I say "who?"
When you said that I'm a god
Did you really mean it?
And when you said that I'm hot
Did you really see it?
You don't mind when I cry
You're such a nice guy
You're quite a lightning strike
Loving you is dreamlike
If you saw inside my mind
You might lose your mind
I know you know I'm kind
I think I want you to be mine
When you said that I'm a god
Did you really mean it?
And when you said that I'm hot
Did you really see it?
You don't mind when I cry
You're such a nice guy
You're quite a lightning strike
Loving you is dreamlike
untitled love song
I hope this works out
I hope we don't drown
I hope we get out
Of this place and time now
I wake with my head
On your chest
Here you lead
Me to come rest
Take me from the void
Outside the window
Drown out all the noise
Let me keep my eyes closed
I like how you play dumb
Then say something smart
You take away the numb
Make love in the dark
You bring warmth to the winter
Now I wish on a star
To make me a true winner
In loving from afar
I wake with my head
On your chest
Here you lead
Me to come rest
Take me from the void
Outside the window
Drown out all the noise
Let me keep my eyes closed
Don't make this
A waste of time
Make me yours
I'll make you mine
Don't make me your secret
Don't make me your secret
Don't make me your secret
I wake with my head
On your chest
Here you lead
Me to come rest
Take me from the void
Outside the window
Drown out all the noise
Let me keep my eyes closed
anxiety
I have some issues not
Worrying about what'll happen
And I have a lot of thoughts
But I'll just try to make it
And I know
They can't
Possibly see me
And I can't go on any longer
But I can't go away
Just let me be a bit stronger
So I get through and stay
And I can't stop feeling this hunger
And it won't go away
Just let me know if I made a blunder
So I get through and stay stay stay stay
They must be staring at me
But not for good reason
I wanna run and hide
And sing a melody
And I know
They can't
Possibly see me
And I can't go on any longer
But I can't go away
Just let me be a bit stronger
So I get through and stay
And I can't stop feeling this hunger
And it won't go away
Just let me know if I made a blunder
So I get through and stay stay stay stay
No, I can't see myself
In the mirror
I can't breathe in this hell
But now it's clearer
I still can't go on any longer
And I can't go away
Just let me be a bit stronger
So one day I could stay
And I can't stop feeling this hunger
And it won't go away
Just let me know if I made a blunder
So I get through and stay stay stay stay
alive
Maybe someday I'll be grateful for the body I've got
Maybe today I'll realize problems never go unfought
There's no real sunrise to light up all the dark
There's still shadows and caverns making their mark
And even though I feel numb today
I'll feel something someday either way
My friends will try to make me laugh
Cause nobody likes to see me sad
And that's why I just cry alone
I don't want them to hear me through the phone
But it's okay
At least I'm not this close to taking my life
And even though I feel numb today
I'll feel something someday either way
My friends will try to make me laugh
Cause nobody likes to see me sad
I'm not happy
I'm not sad
I'm just alive
(I hope I'll have someone there with me)
(One day someone who stays unconditionally)
advent calendar
Counting the ways
For you to leave
Counting the days
Till you're tired of me
I got a sweet treat
Each day of the week
Felt like a feat
But our ship had a leak
I knew the end
Wasn't far
Even that didn't mend
My broken heart
Counting the times
I gave up myself
Only to find
You put me on a shelf
I hate the ways
I miss your embrace
The touch of your face
Don't know what to say
I got a sweet treat
Each day of the week
Felt like a feat
But our ship had a leak
I knew the end
Wasn't far
Even that didn't mend
My broken heart
I lost my mind for a big fucking loser
Who made me wish that I found out much sooner
That I was an experiment for you to try out
And you didn't share, you took the whole amount
Your insane fucking pressure to give all of me
Now just leaves me feeling barren and empty
And now out my window, all that I see
Is a doomsday wasteland world torn at the seams
Empty and goddamn useless
This loss is so fucking ruthless
The calendar's bare bones and empty
But I still don't feel free
You devoured me
All I gave to you
I need me back
But I can't undo
I got a sweet treat
Each day of the week
Felt like a feat
But our ship had a leak
I knew the end
Wasn't far
Even that didn't mend
My broken heart
I tried to be your lover
I was your advent calendar
The treats were mine
But you stole my time
I knew the end
Wasn't far
Even that didn't mend
My broken heart
castle
I have a castle
Made by just me
It was quite a battle
To make it be
I'm in a wasteland
It's hard to live
Within the dusty sand
What really gives?
You fucked it up
I'm not a toy
You're not a man
You're just a boy
You'll suffocate in regret
I won't respond to a single text
I won't feel bad for your guilt
I'll revel in this castle I built
They think it was natural
That I was born with a castle
But I built it from the ground up
To explain that is a hassle
You fucked it up
I'm not a toy
You're not a man
You're just a boy
You'll suffocate in regret
I won't respond to a single text
I won't feel bad for your guilt
I'll revel in this castle I built
You couldn't bring it down if you tried
And if you did I couldn't tell
All that you could ever do is lie
And even then you couldn't sell
Fuck you for leaving me here
Fuck you for causing my tears
Give me back my precious time
What now is yours once was mine
You fucked it up
I'm not a toy
You're not a man
You're just a boy
You'll suffocate in regret
I won't respond to a single text
I won't feel bad for your guilt
I'll revel in this castle I built
You fucked it up (You fucked it up)
I'm not a toy (You fucked it up)
You're not a man (You fucked it up)
You're just a boy (You fucked it up)
You'll suffocate in regret (You fucked it up, you fucked it up)
I won't respond to a single text (You fucked it up, you fucked it up)
I won't feel bad for your guilt (You fucked it up, you fucked it up)
I'll revel in this castle I built (You fucked it up, you fucked it up)
every man's a deadly sin
Every man
Is one of seven
Every land
The opposite of heaven
He could be two
He could be three
He could fuck you
He could fuck me
I can't breathe
When every guy
Happens to be
Making us die
What stage
Of earth are we in?
Every man
Is a deadly sin
Every man
Could be more than one
Every hand
Is bloodied from us
He could be two
He could be three
He could fuck you
He could fuck me
I can't breathe
When every guy
Happens to be
Making us die
What stage
Of earth are we in?
Every man
Is a deadly sin
I'm tired of being seen and not heard
Tired of being thrown out like garbage
So I'll live my life and say words
Silence is the victim of my carnage
I can't breathe
When every guy
Happens to be
Making us die
What stage
Of earth are we in?
Every man
Is a deadly sin
everloving
Red lines every night
We're on the plane but it can't take flight
I can't keep the feeling down
That one night I'll sink and I'll drown
Here on the floor of my room
Blue carpet, the ocean, will be my tomb
Blood in the water like bait
Alone here I'll drown, I'll drown as I ache
Nobody's ever everloving
So what do you do when you feel lonely?
When everybody is good for nothing?
Cause I'll never have a one and only
Nobody is everloving
Now I leave the water running
In hopes that it'll fill up my head
so I won't ever think again
Nobody loves you forever
You may think you're very clever
But nothing ever lasts a lifetime
All of it's just to waste your prime
Nobody's ever everloving
So what do you do when you feel lonely?
When everybody is good for nothing?
Cause I'll never have a one and only
(They will all)
Procrastinate, invalidate
Never appreciate
Ignore you, ditch you,
Gaslight too, get a clue!
Tell lies with dry eyes,
Never ever compromise
Smoke a joint, what's the point
Only ever disappoint
Will I find someone who
Doesn't leave my life?
Who doesn't bring more pain
And wants to make things right
Nobody's ever everloving
So what do you do when you feel lonely
When everybody is good for nothing?
Cause I'll never have a one and only
Nobody's ever everloving
So what do you do when you feel lonely
When everybody is good for nothing?
Cause I'll never have a one and only
i killed you
You dug my grave throughout the week
And pushed me in on Friday
You called me pretty by the creek
And said "I have to go my way"
You shoveled in the dirt and left
And never looked twice
But little did you know your theft
Of my life had a price
I rose up from the ground
You couldn't bring me down
You gave me heaven and took it away
So now I'm back to make you pay
You watched as I died
On beds and couches as you lied
With your actions about us
So I wouldn't put up a fuss
I need to kill you for real
Inside my head to deal
With how you made me feel
You lost me, I was a steal
I rose up from the ground
You couldn't bring me down
You gave me heaven and took it away
So now I'm back to make you pay
I'm sorry but I had to kill you dead
Because of those foolish words you said
And how you treated me when I had bled
So someday you'll be out of my head
I rose up from the ground
You couldn't bring me down
You gave me heaven and took it away
So now I'm back, I made you pay
I made you pay
the postscript
I'm a little tired of catastrophe
The potently abusive pageantry
Of drama
My trauma
I'm a little tired of tragedy
The viral debilitating malady
I'm exhausted
The ground's frosted
I can see you
For what you really are
I can feel you
When I look outside my car
I'm not blind
I'm not whipped
Now that I'm
In the postscript
I'm a little tired of remembering
Your pestering and then my trembling
Cause you
You knew
That I would give in eventually
So I began complying helplessly
So much
I couldn't do
I can see you
For what you really are
I can feel you
When I look outside my car
I'm not blind
I'm not whipped
Now that I'm
In the postscript
When the song doesn't have a climax
When the pain seems to have no reason
You have to give it one
You have to be the sun
That lights your own world up
You can't rely on love
To water all your flowers
It'll never be enough
I can see you
For what you really are
I can feel you
When I look outside my car
I'm not blind
I'm not whipped
Now that I'm
In the postscript
